..

If I ever say I love you
Do you say it back?
And mean it from the bottom of your heart
just like I do?





Hey you all.
Today is a shitday, when it comes to emotions.. I'm so tired of having to help everybody else, when they can't see I'm hurting! But, in another way, how are they supposed to see it, when I hide it so well?
I have an amazing boyfriend, and I couldn't been better with him, so why do i feel like a wreck?
Isn't it possible for me to be totally happy?! Can't I ever loose this feeling of not being good enough for people around me?
Why is it that when every time I try to do something good it just ends up with me disappointing people?! Is it just me, or do any one else feel this way?!
I'm tired of being strong for every body else! I need to be strong for myself, but I can't manage it. I just mess up time after time after time!
I really think it's time for me to just start all over, somewhere else! Somewhere no one knows me, somewhere no one who knows me can find me!

I HATE being alone!

Wee ^^

Weell, now i'm 17. Can't tell any big differens yet, but it's ok! Someone told me yesterday (on my birthday) that I should enjoy while I can, and I entend to do just that! So I'm havin' fun with my friends and I spend a lot of time with my dear one <3 He is totally amazing! I haven't felt this way in almost three years now.. And my closest ones, you know what happend then! Well, not a memory I wan't to think 'bout now!

You came like an angel (L)
I Love You, my monkey ^^

Believe me theres a story behind that nickname ;D He calls me Littl'frog ^^ Wee :D
Like it ^^ But ONLY because it's HIS name on me! No one else can call me that, only my boy <3

Weell, tonight i have just celebratet and had alot of fun! Been drinkin' with my closest friends, and just goofy'n 'round ^^
Thanks everybody, for makin' yesterday so extremely good!
(you know who you are, friends ;*)

But, now I have to catch some sleep! See yah ;D